documenting as i go

(humpalicious)

first weekend in June I decided to turn my desk around so my collage wall was behind me instead of a busy shelf of other people’s books, also to FACE EAST.

5/20/26 10:30 Just humped off thoroughly and quick. Just having talked to him made so much easier that which was a little more difficult 3 days ago when I thought we’d never talk again. I’ve learned how to breathe, squeeze, heighten, focus the energy, lift it up, deepen it simultaneously. I’ve learned much since those early years when I was stuck in my brain.

5/27/26 3:07 PM Going thru Google photos… after watching and deleting the last 3:07 (minutes and seconds) scene of Romancing the Stone, and then the 3 videos I caught from the 2/9/05 video splice that John of CBS helped me serendipitously and secretly shoot from my bookshelf of R & I in bed at 2250. He turned the lamp off so we couldn’t really see anything past that point but the fact I still have it, is so pleasurable.

I got hot and wet watching it. I went into the bedroom and got off spectacularly. No hesitancy, only a laden energetic that Sweet Willy may never arrive again like that. This secret he didn’t share that made me go through so much bitterness that caused me to drain out, learning truly about my Venus in Scorpio and the damage she can cause. Why am I having difficulty writing? You aren’t having difficulty writing. You are as usual splitting yourself between so many things plus you know you must get the physicality moving again. Where is that JCC class list?

6/24/26 @ 11:18 OMGoddess. I just came so dang hard, so dang fast. Sicily turned into GREEK SUMMER by Mood Machine for YouTube. Editing May’s Journalisa pages (online diary) suddenly I got the tweak down below and instead of ignoring it I went straight to the bedroom and lay my body down with just the vibrator he got me and immediately questioned whether I needed to pull down my LOVE pajama bottoms and insert 1 and/or 1 and 2? But just that thought plateau which the ESO book promised… if you’re having 4 hours of orgasms a week any tiny little memory can take you right back to that place of ecstasy. 29 years of these fine memories. That first deep unplanned exhale led to the trigger I’ve learned about through these three decades of deeply exploring my orgasms with him. RAD EXPLORATIONS. From that second on my body was ascending. Half of me was questioning, “Really, can it happen this fast?” The other half of me admitted, ‘It’s happening, can you not feel the ascension?’

My toes pointed, my legs were feeling it, my breath deepened and suddenly the moan, the groan, the twat that had quietly tugged on me and led me to the dark bedroom where many of my happiest moments have taken place was dancing within as I deeply exhaled my pleasure, my passion, and the glee I feel at this age having fully explored this part of myself and knowing the high ways and by ways… being able to get to satisfaction in two minutes versus when I was young and constantly throwing myself down on my pillow, embarrassed by my actions but unable to stop. Not understanding what I was doing.

Now I so understand and am grateful for my choices.

Documenting it as I go.

Just happened to come across this article within an hour………..

older women reporting relatively higher sexual satisfaction than older men https://psycnet.apa.org/record/2018-20858-001

now facing east

the collaged sliding doors of my 2nd bedroom office